It's My Life

er..i forgot to inform you guys..
er..when i was at the tuition centre..me and sinbad..haha..i think when i was in form 3..
recess time yeahh lovely..
went to shop with her..suddenly he appeared right from the corner..shocked a bit..he was alone at that time
i smiled

guess what he did?

stupid thing in his life...dammnn you...
p/s i even sometime told him that


he turned back.wondering i smiled someone behind him..
aiyyaa so silly..
suddenly a chinese guy..(not even cute, handsome, worst than a nerd guy)appeard..

in my heart..why such stupid..i never had a chinese guy in my life..even there, i never spoke to chinese, they just get along with their collegue...that guy was worst..look immature

he just walked by without any feeling..damn..why so hard to give such a signal..can't be friend with genius?
okay..you never get close/get along with girl..

yeahh he moved to S.P after PMR..SM Hj Ibrahim.haaha..suddenly while chatting with a friend(my neighbour also), she told me that..
"ohh..that guy..hahaa..he went to my school la..at Pokok Sena..er..kinda naughty"
i just..hu?i guess it's not that worst..boys matter..like my elder brothers.. :p

i was stuck in the same school..my result..er..enough for me :)
nothing much happen..just heard few rumor..he wear "lebai"..hahaa...ok.
well.seriously nothing much happen..he just mention that..will back to alor setar.his parent bought a house nearby..wooww..that house..who's lucky..:)

still be friend with her GF..suddenly..got rumour..they just broke up..i think when i was form 5..after july..not sure which month after that..
errkk..what was going on?
i ask her..and him...how come..why..answer..didn't suited well..
i was not that close to her ex-GF..taking advantage?no lah..
the truth was..
few time he sms me..he was very sad..he missed her..frust..he don't have anybody else..(i was a loner also,if only you knew)
how i felt?worse...broken heart..because of strange feeling in my heart..i just...try to be nice to her..

normal talking around girls..haha..
after SPM..suddenly he sms me.her mom just went an operation due to canser...OMG!
God Bless Her..she recovered soon..

I told her(his Ex)she was shocked..i didn't know whether they were still contacting each other or not
soon..i start my mission.testing her..sorry dear..i was testing you how much you love him..he deserve someone love him...i just giving up my feeling.looking for others...cause i was not worth for it..(stupid in add math,account,ugly,immature..etc)
want to know why?this guy..missing you a lot...
the way she talked...urrghhh...still didn't admit..why so hard for you to understand?
act cool..like nothing happened..the right word was..her ego was so..high...

i just..i wont said nothing..it between both of them how to settle it..i just a 3rd party whos' not worth..

me..been dating with his friend..but i bring my little brother(3 of us)..trying to find the suitable one..er..didn't suit at all..good as a friend only..no such feeling..i guess he likes me..er..sooryy..even trying to make him(my fiance now) jealous..even a bit..aiyyaa.that guy..so hard..no such feeling..ignored me..keep searching my BF..dush dusshh dushh if only i can shot you..feel like he don't like me..i gived up!


even date with adik angkat (how to say in English,is it adopt little brother)..hahaa...handsome tuh..erkk..but did't suited well..


got result..haha..er..not flying color..but enough for me..he..haha..good in calculating but not in biology..haha..
thought you wanna be a doc..i guess..engineering is good for you..i went to matriculation..his ex went to matriculation..he?he rejected matriculation offer..cause fall in love as an aircraft maintenance..er..i said nothing cause a friend of mine told me that,her brother(genius guy) went there..later can continue to oversea :)

time passed by..before that i received PLKN for 3rd batch..damn..postpone due to went to matriculation..yeah beebeehh..


there..i was trying hard to forgot the memories..i thought i can fine a nice guy..yeahh prince charming..me..outspoken enough..haha..i became famous in the class..hikhikhikk..my tomboy..er..still there..cute than before..i know how to dress well,make up a bit..haha..few people.my target..sparepart?
er..i think yes it is...i have 4 option..yeahh..i won't tell you..it's really personnel..er kinda "kos lepas" in economy, mean 2nd option that you have to let go..but i have 4..haha..i still not dare enought to tell them..who am i to them..just an idiot..
BUT!

the shadow..still there..oh God..what was that signal about..why.why why..i didn't understand..what is it about..huhu..me caught in dilemma..huhuu..well actually i still praying God..give me a right guy for me..
but the shadow still there..




he,she,her..what left?me...i still wonder since previous previous previous year..what are these coincidence?Fate?birth date also almost same..haha..what is love?what are those?my mom notice my different..haha..which guy she hanged with..er.i never told any prob or dilemma to mama..she thought a KL guy?..i knew she scared if somebody hurt me..don't worry..mama..


to be continued..

So..what do you expect?HIM?

pls..think positive.
this weekend is my lovely brother birthday..yeye so happy..he's grown up already..
i think wanna make a surprise party for him..kidnapped him from hostel :)
the rules mention every weekend can get back home..
yeahh the devil wear blue..

what kind of surprise..
i think..don't wish anything till evening..haha..
ofcourse i can see his sour face..haha..bad sister..

since he was little..we used to tease him with

how should i start..
straight to the point..
he just YM me just ..

'Pastikan anda menggunakan bahasa yang betul'
"basic pn dh banyak salah"

for me..
ok thanks dear..i admit..my english..still worse..huhu
adehh..kerisauan melanda diri..
my words like this.Like i'm talking to you..chit chat..
there's a " , " and pause..monologue..question mark..

and also he was asking who was 'her'..blablabla...
er..not everything i can reveal la..
and..saya berada dalam keadaan sgt beremosi..
cacamarba..tekanan..tulis ikut dan ja.. (tulis sesuka hati)xcheck ayat tunggang terbalik.
for your information..my wording even in a conversation..always..kinda like that..
that my weakness..

will stop for awhile..have a kitkat..
how can i stay calm?
left few month to go...huuhu..
i can feel people will laugh at me..later..if i don't take action..

-worry-

After the bicycle stuff..yeahh..grown up to be teenager..
er..still not managed dreaming in da same schooll..after UPSR..he got more 5A..me..i got 4A 1B

different school.he went to male college..i went to girl college..opp by this time..he got a brother..haha..
hhaaha neneneee...so..4people in his house..

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Forget old story..i used to live in a situation..at a moment
"oh no...scary,sad,damn,frustation",but
in just few minutes.i have to change my mood to happy..it is tough?..
er..i used to be customer service officer..answering call..wallaa..
so i get used to it..even just awhile..still need to polish my skill..wooo
well learning that help me a lot..we are human..wonderful..
still lucky compare to war zone..scary..heart beat fastly..over dead body..

let's start a new chapter after "How Do We Meet"
er..later ok..i just started to write it..but not posting it yet..

life must go on..
live life to the fullest..
no pain no gain

i see sunshine shining brightly in the sky,
wind blow smoothly,
with a smell of roses and jasmine,
such a colourful painting.

opp..short poem by me..
last time..i love to make a poem..
:p
this new entry...
so..be patient ok..
regarding my wedding preparation..still under arrangement..
already bought inner dress..that turtleneck one..fuh.fit my size..at last..but the price..
er..i just close my eyes and paid it
RM49.50..at Sogo..where the sell Malaysian dress
last month went to KL..with parent..sorry late update..
day 2..i got fever..temperature..so high..cause me headache..luckily my friend was there to help
my mom choose curtain at nilai 1..

nilai 1 is great..the design are marvellous.. :)

Well, i've always been question..how do you guys met?
haha..wow..the answer..long story actually..well..the date already announce..i will reveal it bit by bit..

readers,if you love to read short story..so here it is..
I was born on 6 Oct. 1986..2.50am-Hospital Besar Alor Setar
He was born on 6 May 1986..on..i don't know-in KL

is it a coincidence?

i've know him for 17years old..but he know me for about 9years old

yeahh it is..
that time..still living in Taman Bee Bee Park..this place still exist..hehe..i was chubby..white, naughty?haha...
Late Tok Bibi and her daughter..er..damn forgot her name..huuhu..it's Mak..er..she already past away 2years ago.. were my nanny..my parents working..imagine 6 of us..they have to take care..haha...quite tough..last time surrounding is much safer..than now..er..last time only 6..but now..we are 7..my younger brother was born on 1995..haha..it's fun have a brother..not only me making noise in da house

he?i don't know..never met yet.. :P

then,
at the age of 5..move to Taman Rakyat Mergong..till now..er..we are among the earlier neighbour stay there..
hehe..me..always play alone..my sibling went to school..MakCik Gayah is my nanny..
yeahh i love to play with boys..at home, my 2 elder brother always babysit me..ngehngehngeh..i'm not kind a ladies girl..haha...i even sometime slept with them..until one day..
waa....wa...
how can you guys...huhhuuuu..told me that horror story.. a ghost without head..damn..pretty scary..
told my mom..my mom said nothing..i slept in our parent room..
always play outside house at noon..last time.the weather was no that very hot right now..

Mak Cik Gayah was my nanny..everybody adore me...haha.i wonder..maybe im just the only little girl hyperactive one there..

6 years old..went to Taska Masjid Zahir..our cloth..haha..funny..wether you was a boy or girl.. our uniform was a short sleeve shirt, purple and trousers..no skirt..hehe..suit me well..to climb...my gang?only 2 girls and the other 3,boys..haha..tomboy..short hair..but when performing on stage..turn into a princess..hikhikkhikkk...
singing "Ulik Mayang"..im da leader.our clothes..huhu..sexy la..no sleeve...kahkahkah..thinking about it..on that day..sore throat..damn..cause by my elders brother..teased me+horror story..
hehe..I shaked hand with Sultan Kedah..during our graduate..yihaa..once in a lifetime
err..him?
ok..While i was at my nanny house at 6yr old..found a boy..cute ordinary..love soccer..ehehee..would love to play with him..actually our home is just right the corner..imagine..Y..my house on da left,his on right...
damn..he ignored me..no matter how close i am to him..yeahh i love to play with boys..already asked him..remember me or not..he said, No..well,i'll make him remember me for the rest of his life..

is it a coincidence?i don't know..i feel something..but i don't know what it is..i'm still a kid
hmm..then..not remember which age..we meet again..i think around 8-10 yr old...i love cycling in da morning and evening..haha..meet again..hehe..it happen few time..haha..he stil da same guy..ignore me..but this time..he put his eye on me..yeye..i asked him last time..he said..he don't remember..that's men..hmm..

To all my close readers, i am inviting you to my wedding on 3rd July 2010..
please email me, dnur_adillah@yahoo.com for reservation and confirmation.

i am looking my alma matter :
1. SMK Sultanah Bahiyah 1999-20003
2. Perlis Matriculation College 2004/2005 Accounting
3. Universiti Sains Malaysia-especially School Of Arts-2005-2008

please contact me back.Thank you.

ohh..before i forgot..
my wedding theme would be : Javanese
color theme : magenta

here i list down..the thing i have to find:

1.inner turtleneck white sleeve to wear for wedding..(hard to find my size,anyone-help me,please)

2.extra wedding card-already book 200page for vip
3.bedroom design-still searching suitable material,budget
4.flower for hantaran/souvenier
5.potpouri perfume from lovely lace
6.lamp..i always joking with little sofea.lampu(speaking mat salleh ckp melayu)
7.paint wall-looking the right color for wall..
8.curtain-for sliding door,window,doors
9.innerscarf-black
10.still didn't book makeup-hard to get her answer the phone

Yihaaa..back again..just wait guys..
i will update soon before the end this weekend..
Good News later..haha..date & invitation for u
i am tired a bit..too many stuff need to settle..
seem like my fiance is not here...i'm split into two..haha..
rest for awhile..i am still working..hehe..
resting my brain..fuhh..so many design ideas just out..
haha...actually nothing is free in this world..fuh..unless very famous people(sponsor)
i have divided all my saving to 6..

1.ring
2.wedding dress
3.hantaran (souvenier)
4.Visa (very important-i only pay GBP145 fees for application,and more info british embassy)
5.saving after wedding (before i got job in Wales)
6.medical checkup (preparation for wedding & travel)

the frog appear again..err photographer..i'm lack of money.already calculate from the begining..
mostly start RM500 for wedding and above..is there any, just taking picture without printing?only CD?
i have few option photogrphers that i known..some of them are nice,wow,amazing..some are new and talented..and some need to improve more..but the price....i am still not afford..

maybe some of you will say..why not asking parent,sibling..well the fact is..it's not that..this are the things i try to avoid..i have my own private reason..before and after already think..i only can tell them..i don't have enough money for that..all my budget are economy budget..ekonomoney..haha..
if only i have a twin..hikhikhik got FOC..pic last forever la..huhu..
i'll try find another way.last time..during my elder brother wedding..i'm the cameragirl.but in this blog,i only post for my friend solemnization click sample


thanks for reading..if u have any idea,just let me know..emel & YM: dnur_adillah@yahoo.com